Matt, who recently admitted that he battles with depression, said that he contemplated ending his life while on a holiday to Spain.
He said: ‘I went away alone at Christmas 2009 to my parents’ holiday home in the Costa del Sol. I had all these plans to go running every day, see the Picasso Museum, go wine tasting and all these cultural things to get my mind back on track. But it rained nonstop, so I had nothing to do but drink – and I drank heavily.’
During his stay Matt was drinking up to two bottles of whiskey every day. Matt added: ‘I’d wake up and the front door would be open, bits of sick were everywhere and I was worried about myself. But instead of combating it I just drank more and got in such a state. I just thought, there’s no way out apart from… you know. I had suicidal thoughts. One day I looked over the balcony and I felt nothing. I was empty.’
Things got so bad for the Your Face Sounds Familiar contestant that he contemplated jumping off. He said: ‘I remember there was a slight breeze when I put one leg up onto the balcony…Suddenly I thought: ‘What the f*** are you doing?’ And I burst into tears. The next day was Christmas Eve. I’d been on a bender for six days. I cleaned myself up, shaved my hair off. Then I went home.’
Matt is taking part in the ITV singing show to raise money for the charity Mind.